50 day Countdown...

50 days. There are 50 more days (according to our wedding website) until I walk down that isle and up to the man I am going to spend to rest of my life with. I'm going to stand there in front of 200 plus people and say that all too well known phrase 'i do'. Am I afraid of getting married? No. Am I afraid of doing it in front of almost 250 people? YES!!

I'm praying as the invitations come in that people respond 'i regretfully decline' as my mother and I artfully picked as an adequate response to saying NO in attending the wedding. Regretfully decline... oh please, PLEASE don't regret not coming. That means two less eye balls staring at me while I declare the two most infamous words in the English language.

I have been fighting stage fright since I don't know when. It's one of the biggest fears our society deals with in this day in age. I've tried doing drama, leadership exercises, I'm the first to get it over with in a classroom setting, and I'm a cashier for a world recognized corporation. You think I'd be over it by now? Apparently not.

At my Bridal Shower, I had non stop butterflies. Sitting in front of all those people; family, new family, and friends, all I could think about was if i was unwrapping gifts gracefully enough to where they would know I respected their offering and not too delicately that I was an annal prude. It's not like you can just turn the staring off!!

::Deep Breathes::

Okay, Sorry, Let's Start Again...

Hi! My Name is Keira, and I'm kind of a mess.

I'm twenty three years old and currently taking a semester off school to prepare for the biggest day of my life. I'm writing to keep some sanity in getting ready for this MAJOR step in my life. Since I am a Psychology major, I do believe that this will provide me with some self therapy throughout the process. I think my perspective is similar to a lot of young woman my age finishing school, working to work, and maintaining a healthy social life and relationship.  I can't speak for everyone, but I will try to give an honest depiction of, well, life. In general.

These next 50 days are the 'Final Countdown', if I may. More than likely it will be filled with stress, mood swings, partying, more stress, and food. Because I love food.

So bare with me and I'll do my best to be entertaining.


p.s.  http://www.mywedding.com/dustinandkeira/